Flowers and You Lyrics

I'm heartsick
and well rehearsed
Highly decorated
with a badge that reads
"it could be worse"
So prideful I choose
to live in disguise
with a levee set
for my heavy eyes

I apologize for the grief
When you'd refuse to eat
I didn't know
just what to say
While watching you
wither away

I'm homesick
and living in the past
Seemingly unfazed and strong if anyone asks
I'm keeping up appearances with white lies
with a levee set
for my heavy eyes
I apologize for the grief
When you'd talk about belief
I didn't know
just what to say
While watching you
wither away

it was time this whole time
we can't undo or rewind
Just a simple conversation
About nothing much at all
Couldn't keep me in the room
I just kept walking
down the hall
But now I understand
Just what a fool I'd been
No matter what the context
I won't have that time again
(and I live with that)

I took inventory
of what I took for granted and I ended up with more than I imagined
I've kept it bottled up and to myself in the cellar kept for my ever-changing mental health