For how long have I been waiting,
sitting here & masturbating,
waiting for something to happen,
but nothing f*****' happened,
maybe never will happen,
is this all life can give to me,
pain heartache & misery,
every time myphone rings I'm scared,
"what bad news this time, man , who's f****** dead?",
tried to change my ways of thingkin,
just to keep my boat from sinking,
quit drinking and stay off the drugs,
but after three days said "this f*****' sucks",
got 26 f***** up years behind me,
and some day that reaper-guy, he will find me,
but before he gets me I wish,
to see something more,
something more than this,
'cos I'm lost in the dark,
with a spike through my heart,
with nobody to love,
you know I got nowhere to go,
I'm lost in the dark,
my life's shattered apart,
yeah it stinks just like a fart,
it's been f***** up from the start,
from the very start.
sitting here & masturbating,
waiting for something to happen,
but nothing f*****' happened,
maybe never will happen,
is this all life can give to me,
pain heartache & misery,
every time myphone rings I'm scared,
"what bad news this time, man , who's f****** dead?",
tried to change my ways of thingkin,
just to keep my boat from sinking,
quit drinking and stay off the drugs,
but after three days said "this f*****' sucks",
got 26 f***** up years behind me,
and some day that reaper-guy, he will find me,
but before he gets me I wish,
to see something more,
something more than this,
'cos I'm lost in the dark,
with a spike through my heart,
with nobody to love,
you know I got nowhere to go,
I'm lost in the dark,
my life's shattered apart,
yeah it stinks just like a fart,
it's been f***** up from the start,
from the very start.