In Mere Defense Lyrics

I've seen it all without watching
I've listened but heard nothing
I've spoke my mind without voice
I've owned every truth in the book
I dug a hole so wide and deep
I hid under the largest stone
I screamed until my ears bled
To shut out the noise, to control

I reached out to myself
Then painted my walls black
Made me my own one and all
How could I've been so blind?

I can see so clearly
I could not see clear at all
Afraid to see, to feel
Had to blindside myself to move on
I reached out to myself
And nailed my eyes shut
In mere defense, I'd shut myself off
How could I've been so dumb?

I put my trust in only me
To let myself go
Released my own one and all
And staged my own fall

Never turn your back on yourself
Always keep your eyes open
Found myself kneeling down
Peeled my skin off
Stealing time
Left myself a bleeding blur

Goodbye my love

I reached out to myself
I thought I could help
Created my own downfall
How can I be so numb?

I can see
Clearly I will never see things clear
I'll keep an eye on myself
A stare in defense