To Twist and to Bleed Lyrics

it's more than this heart can bear
light up the dim room where i rot
where have i gone
these eyes have seen too much
enough to bleed from inside out
go back, back down
never let these thoughts harm me again
and i beg, please understand this
just one more time
and i'll try to be the red in your life

did you never see
or realize
understanding you as the acting part
in a time of standstill in my life
maybe the burden
you had to bear
was way too heavy - a way to escape
twisting between the condition of compassion
and a burning hate against myself

and i am twisting, i'm twisting, i'm twisting
with dirty hands
covering my eyes
hasting down the wrong path
while suppurating
and bleeding
to mark the way back home
i'll never overcome this vice that
seems to me like
the only emotion
my heart is willing to give
the warmest feeling
that my body is willing to feel