How'd You Have Me Lyrics

I've saved up enough courage
And I'll spend it now
But all for what, I ask myself
No, it doesn't feel that an answer matters
Oh, I thought I needed you to give me strength
The things I'd hoped you'd say
But as you stayed quiet
I just wonder

Only one thing left I'd wished I knew
How did you have me and I only got you?
If it's all bad timing and there's no control
I'm gonna do anything
Gonna do everything I want
From now on

Alone with you'd change your voice
You'd change your face
Scared to say what's wrong
But we kept going on, yeah, kept going on like
Two adult children engaged in separate play
You can run down all those days to me
Run through the whole year, but why?
Only one thing left I wished I knew
How did you have me and I only got you?
If it's all bad timing and there's no control
I'm gonna do anything
Gonna do everything I want
From now on
No-one else would be as patient
Or at least be so forgiving
I'm not curious at all where your heart was
You can talk and I might listen
Hey, for once you showed up, present
I'm done living powered by this hurt

Only one thing left I wished I knew
How did you have me and I only got you?
If it's all bad timing and there's no control
I'm gonna do anything
Gonna do everything I want
From now on