i try to realize i try to understand what every thing has become and i want to strip away the incompetence expose everything to my loveless heart i want to be loved how much longer will it torment me i'm strapped within the weakness of my uncertainty, my s**uality, my inadequacy laugh at me as i slip away in search of serenity to suture the wounds as i am swallowed within its twisted complexity it calls me the spoiled soil save me it doesn't me anything how much longer will it torment me it calls me to save me