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there's no sense waiting in this state
i've realized too late
there's only so much left inside
only so much s***e to hide
i've dreamed of castles in the air
but i've never found out where
i need a break or a vacation
before i give myself a scare
don't try to understand me your logic won't command me
don't try to read between my mind

if i could kill you with a touch
i'd never hate this much
one thousand colors every day
but all i see is grey
my history is plagiarized
i feel desensitized
maybe one more shot of reason
will ripple this disguise
i told that man just what i thought of him
so i'm right where i am tied to this bed
subconsciously restrained and now i wish i hadn't said
what i said to both of my parents because i made my mother cry
if they'd only wait i'll make it up to them because i can be a better man
i'm floating in a frozen sea
i'll watch the morning break
giving way to shades of brown
i see the colors all around
for once there's no one here but me
and my autumn reverie
and in my heart i know
it's as close as i'll ever be