Meaning of Unequipped Lyrics

I realised today I should have invited you with me
Every time I left,
Every time I left,
Left, I left, I left.
I went away with a boy I admired
Then one day on the beach with no harbour
I wept for the water between us
Wept 'cause I keep on leaving
I left, left
I wept, I wept.
I'm crazy about a boy
I can't seem to start again
I'm wild about a boy
I've never been so d*** ignored.

I made a terrible mistake
I can't start again
I'm so hellbent on loving and leaving
All of a sudden there's something
I'm craving for you to make me an honest woman
Make you my honest man,
My man, my man.