The First Collapse Lyrics

you could know my sentence
but the meaning was lost somehow
you could change my weather
but the raining has washed you out
you could be the witness
of my very first collapse but now
you chose to stay indifferent
and it has to be evil so far
you could exist like you're almost real
you could be anything
you could invent how to turn this wheel
don't you get back to me

everytime i wanted
and i wanted it all the time
i could see you on my windows
like the others could see the christ
maybe it's a sickness
but it's probably a typical retreat
basically i'm sober
but the point is to know how to breathe
you could exist like you're real
you colud be anything
you could be turning this wheel
you could have my body
but it won't seem to happen in this life
think you should feel worried
that you're only a ghost of myself

now that your mission has never quite gone well
i will be turning the wheel without your help
and if you ever approach me, i'll turn back