Seeds of Doubt Lyrics

I pray
For God to save my diminishing faith
Sometimes I would beg
I prayed
That these jealous f**** would get what they deserve.
I tried
To cheat on life and drink all day
Smoke my mind away
I begged
Pleading day and night and night and day
That all this pain would go away

Everyday I'm barely getting by
Hang my head low
From a noose I'll never show
Through my calloused hands
Lowest of the low
Pinnacle of hate
Through the mud....
Drag my tired feet
I bet
You never had a doubt
Never did I think
That I would trust you
Afraid of what i might do
You thought you had me fooled

In my dreams i dreamed that everybody died
Narcissistic mask of self deprecation
Everyday i hate on all my friends
My narcissistic mask of self deprecation
Pessimistic thoughts that seem so familiar
Come with me and look in the mirror
Narcissistic mask of self deprecation
run and hide there will be no redemption

I know that I cant go back
Ripped apart and left for dead
Mother-f****** caused my wounds
I trusted liars
Liars that pray for my death
You prayed

The reason I don't show you love no more is 'cause I got no love left
I've lost it.....