Linger Lyrics

It's hard to talk about someone I hardly know
I just want to go back to the same things I always go back to
I'm to the point of disbelief that I even question what I see
Second guessing what's right in front of me
I can look at my best friends
And I can see the hope
The strength
It's real
Leaving me wondering when all that died in me
The same passion is there
But it's in an opposite vein
I tried to feel that optimism
But who the f*** am I kidding
I've lost so much f****** time to all the lingering
Too busy hiding from the man I'm becoming
Can't bear this f****** weight
It's much too heavy to take
I don't know what's heavier
The cloud in my head
Or the weight on my shoulders
I don't see s*** in myself
But if you say you see something
I f****** swear I'll keep trying
I'll f****** try 'til I'm dying
That's why I cover all my skin
'Cause I'm not happy with the person within
I use the ink to remind me that forever exists
Arnon