Sleeplike Lyrics

callous!
i awake in this dream state.
everyday runs together.
i am a hallow shell.
colors and lights run together.
i don't feel.
my only defense is sleep and the sleep-like.
this is beyond mediocrity this is reality.
this is beyond apathy this is giving up.
what hurts most is discovering all i believed in and fastened myself too are illusions.
as the world distracts and decays.
the only portion of it i know distracts me and i begin to decay.
distract and decay.
the smell is overwhelming.
there is life off in the landscape.
i can see it through the distortion and blur.
my legs are now dead weight.
ill drag myself there if i have to.