Gay Thoughts Lyrics

I try to stop all these
gay thoughts and feelings
I don't know where they come from
Oh all of these gay thoughts
I've had trouble conceiving
since I was fairly young

I tell them I love you
I don't want to lose you
but they don't mind
I hardly believe me
I always deceive me
time after time

Part of it's nature
the other part seems darker
Don't know what to blame it on
Try to control my behavior
but this is so much harder
When I'm far away from home