Blue String Lyrics

I am breathing beside you
But I'm not there with you
You are sleeping in my bed
But I'm dead here with you
Walls keep coming closer and I am somewhere else tonight
Like I have always been
I have carried this blue string around my arm for too long

You have been too good to me
And I have done my best to love you
But there's a beast inside of me
That keeps me away from anyone

Tonight I crawl back to my world
There's no one else there and I am all alone
The only thing that brings comfort
Is this blue string I wear
If everything is bliss, is that what you think this is
When you don't even want to know that a dark side exists
Everything is great, it's perfect and it's safe
Well I don't live in that world, it's not mine

The blue string is still so tied

You don't understand at all
You don't know why I'm like this
It's not hard to take the blame
But when I cry it's not because all of this
Tonight I crawl back to my world
There's no one else there and I am all alone
Tonight I crawl back to my world
There's no one else there

And I am all scared

Pulling away your smile is fading away
Pulling away and everything is fading away