I Hate Hartley Lyrics

Seems like forever, like forever
since I tore myself apart
and left my
friends in the wake
of countless tears
and fading life,
when I couldn't
seem to grasp the life I lead
and the lives I touch
it's one year on now,

one year on, one year on
still I struggle with the same demons
I shed as
I laid there
lost in my head, lost in my head
lost in this g****** hospital
bed...

I'm not the same man, and I don't dare try,

try to uncover all
the darkness that I hide
it's like my demons are my lovers...
but I've got
friends
by my side, I've got hope in my eyes
and dreams to aspire to
and
the world to watch below
(chorus)
And death won't be my lover I've got so
much left to give and take my life with subtle steps instead of not wanting
all that is left...

instead of trying to take my own life
it's one year on
and I am stronger -
I want to live much longer
not grow old and bitter
and jaded and not hate what life gave me
and let the fear wash away
and
let the demons blunt their claws
on a life that's full of mistakes
but
always searching for much more.
I won't die defeated.

'cause I've got
friends
by my side
I've got hope in my eyes
and dreams to aspire to
and the
whole wide world to watch below...

(chorus)
And death won't be my lover I've
got so much left to give and take my life with subtle steps instead of not
wanting all that is left...