Afraid of Fear Lyrics

Listen to every word I tell you
I need you to understand
I smile, I cheer, I'm calm and careful
I always offer a helping hand
You know the gist of me now
And yet I have a secret to reveal

I get consumed by the dark
I feel the teeth of the shark
I hear feet following me
Spiders crawl on my knee

Bright light keeps me asleep
Faces rest before mine
Blurred figures in the door
Still wanting more

Sometimes I wish I could go outside
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't have to hide
I see doubt in your eyes
You think I'm telling lies
Like I'm just kidding around
Trampling on thin ground

Why is it so hard to believe
That my mind is full of grief
That what I say is the truth
I just try to find relief

Hands holding my head
Passengers on empty seats
Stars calling me outside
With blood on my hands
Heartbeat out of control
Voices in empty places
Eyes watching every move
Pain without a wound

No, I don't need your help
No, you can't see what I see
You don't want to
You don't want to

I just wish that
whenever you are not here
For once not being
Afraid of fear