It's Been Awhile (LP version) Lyrics

It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while
Since I could stand
on my own two feet again
And it's been a while
Since I could call you

And everything I can remember
As f***** up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Have stretched myself beyond my means

It's been a while
Since I could say
that I wasn't addicted
It's been a while
Since I could say
I loved myself as well and...
It's been a while
Since I've gone and f***** things up
Just like I always do
It's been a while
But all that s*** seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can remember
As f***** up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Gone and f***** things up again... again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
But then I go an f*** things up again

It's been a while
Since I could...
Look at myself straight
It's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry
It's been a while
Since I've seen the way
the candles light your face
It's been a while
But I can still
remember just the way you taste
Everything I can remember
As f***** up as it all may seem to be,
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry