the sun is shining in my eyes. and all it makes me think of is you. i used to think it was redder than you. sometimes i feel it's not that much better than you, because all it shows is the holes that are left that you no longer occupy. if you only knew how bad i wish i could shut off my feeling like you do. i used to think that my belly was the only one you'd wrap your legs around. but now i know the hard truth that all dreams come way too ungently back to reality. but in my heart, i have all of these things that you just won't see until you open yours again. and you know i'd do anything for you. but there's only so much i can look past. and so much more that i can't forget. you're so gone, like the water in a river: always moving further along. and i'm a stone. a great, big, stuck stone. the greatest, biggest, stuckest stone. and i can't move on. i can't move on. i cant go on. God save me. girl help me.