my fingers are falling apart now 'cause i can't talk to you. we've fell into this pattern of returning the hurt. i know the more i try desperately to let you know how much i'm trying the further away i push you. i feel like i'm losing you. i feel like i'm losing any chance. and why do you tell me to let go? i will never let go of you in my heart. there's too much to remember; too many mistakes i've made to give up now. i don't wanna lose you to one of your quick, bad decisions. the ones you make when you're running away. the ones you're unaware of. the ones that are making me the least important person in your life... why do you tell me to let go? i will never let go of you in my heart. no matter how cruel you get. but when will you be aware of that? i miss you.