Beautiful/Depressing Lyrics

With defeatists, I feel alright
Your tongue's still on me
Tight round my neck
With the feeling, I must stay
No more walking in the paths of day
Chorus:
I remember beautiful, every word
I remember what it was, they're all disgusting things
Choking on this every night
It's hard to breathe in
But I breathe all right

I remember beautiful, every word
I remember what it was, they're all disgusting things
I remember what it was that made me smile
I remember everything, I remember everything
But now it's over yeah