Carry the Weight Lyrics

I used to want to die but now I believe, not in a distant god but there is a love I found in me
I'd rather be awake and in pain than asleep
Singing as if no one can hear takes more courage than you think
I carried the weight in the only way I knew

I was scared enough to lie and say that I'm okay
When inside I was dying, so confused, so alone, so afraid
I hope you never know what it's like to hide a piece of yourself inside
To be so f****** ashamed you'd rather kill yourself than be alive
I want to be alive
I carried the weight in the only way I knew

I am still scared but I've got courage to be more vulnerable and one day free
Now my heart isn't covered with concrete, I can breathe
No longer scared of the vulnerability
No longer scared of the person that I see