The pain of twisted narcisitic abhorence for failure
Breathes a sigh, a cold fruition of my ways
Among these facile misconceptions, thirsts for rapturous delight
Dulcet tones, trivial words, and warm displays
And here I dwell in dark recesses, in this brooding state enslaved,
Begrudging innocence from my decrepit cell.
Lure the detriment within, entice vexation, tempt denial
And spurn the fleeting peace of mind I knew so well
And no, reflection never counts for nothing.
But my a***ytic mind won't let me be.
And I'd do anything to hold you while you're sleeping
When I'm with you all these fears I've fashioned fade away
When I'm with you everything is so much clearer
When I'm with you the nights hold no more shadow than the day
When I'm with you
Can I consume a clearer state amid this pall of clouded senses,
Literarily extract the vestal seed
And exorcise these fiendish lesions, fraternize a lucid s***e
Revere the face of simple grace and not the deed.
And I know reflection never counts for nothing
But my a***ytic mind won't set me free.
And I'd die for you to hold me while I'm sleeping
I'd pushed dependence away, I'd found control
I was the eye of conviction, I was whole
Moulting fears of rejection, my hands grew still
Set my sights on direction and aspired to will
Woeful thoughts left behind me, a stayed disdain
I buried cold dereliction, I could feel again
Watched my apathy crumble like a friend betrayed
Exiled penance forever, I'd never fade.
I'd washed pretense from mentation, I'd found my door
I'd rid myself of confusion, suffered doubt no more
And at the road's intersection, with my head held high
I bred my own resurection, bid myself goodbye
I shed morose lamentations for discarded skin
Childhood dreams of perfection, of finding peace within
And as these petty delusions slipped from sight and mind
I found myself quite contented.
But you drove for miles to spend one night then home again. You whispered in my ear.
Forever danced upon your lips, your fingers nestled in my hair.
Your thighs and eyes my drowning fate as I immersed myself within
The sweet perfection of your gaze, the warm affection of your skin.
She played when all had slipped away, pursued before she saw the flame.
She waited patiently for me when no one else would do the same.
She mourned at every parting word and brushed afflicted fears aside.
She took my soul into her keeping.
I'll miss her for all she gave to me
I'll feel her and all she helped me see
I'll miss her, but I'm living strange
I loved her, but things change
Breathes a sigh, a cold fruition of my ways
Among these facile misconceptions, thirsts for rapturous delight
Dulcet tones, trivial words, and warm displays
And here I dwell in dark recesses, in this brooding state enslaved,
Begrudging innocence from my decrepit cell.
Lure the detriment within, entice vexation, tempt denial
And spurn the fleeting peace of mind I knew so well
And no, reflection never counts for nothing.
But my a***ytic mind won't let me be.
And I'd do anything to hold you while you're sleeping
When I'm with you all these fears I've fashioned fade away
When I'm with you everything is so much clearer
When I'm with you the nights hold no more shadow than the day
When I'm with you
Can I consume a clearer state amid this pall of clouded senses,
Literarily extract the vestal seed
And exorcise these fiendish lesions, fraternize a lucid s***e
Revere the face of simple grace and not the deed.
And I know reflection never counts for nothing
But my a***ytic mind won't set me free.
And I'd die for you to hold me while I'm sleeping
I'd pushed dependence away, I'd found control
I was the eye of conviction, I was whole
Moulting fears of rejection, my hands grew still
Set my sights on direction and aspired to will
Woeful thoughts left behind me, a stayed disdain
I buried cold dereliction, I could feel again
Watched my apathy crumble like a friend betrayed
Exiled penance forever, I'd never fade.
I'd washed pretense from mentation, I'd found my door
I'd rid myself of confusion, suffered doubt no more
And at the road's intersection, with my head held high
I bred my own resurection, bid myself goodbye
I shed morose lamentations for discarded skin
Childhood dreams of perfection, of finding peace within
And as these petty delusions slipped from sight and mind
I found myself quite contented.
But you drove for miles to spend one night then home again. You whispered in my ear.
Forever danced upon your lips, your fingers nestled in my hair.
Your thighs and eyes my drowning fate as I immersed myself within
The sweet perfection of your gaze, the warm affection of your skin.
She played when all had slipped away, pursued before she saw the flame.
She waited patiently for me when no one else would do the same.
She mourned at every parting word and brushed afflicted fears aside.
She took my soul into her keeping.
I'll miss her for all she gave to me
I'll feel her and all she helped me see
I'll miss her, but I'm living strange
I loved her, but things change