baby, i know i am crazy and it pains me to find you spending all your time talking me down from heights and watching for warning signs, looking into overcast eyes that predict the coming storm and beg you to keep me warm. they warn here comes another night of holding me while i cry until the morning, so lock the doors, draw the blinds, bring the furniture inside and wait for it to start pouring, cause it's gonna come down in torrents. somewhere and somehow i found you and suckered you into this one-sided relationship, it was a dirty trick, the truths i distorted, a simple bait-and-switch, a failing circus of perforated promises like i am improving, it will be worth it, i am improving, it will be worth it. but it's nice of you to wait, while i make all my mistakes. i can't say how long it will take, there's no end in sight, i'm afraid. but the kindness you've displayed without a hint of impatience, i pray that it infiltrates my madness and calms all the mayhem. the city wears rain like a veil, and i fail to meet her glance, just the wail of an ambulance sails down the back of my neck and leaves through my fingertips. everything's coming up pale. i feel my body grey. i need perpetual motion, perpetual sound to keep my thoughts away. ok? ok.