and I have done this before
and I've seen, and I've seen
and I have been here before
and I've seen, and I've seen
this isn't happening to me
I gave, I tried but I'm far to weak
the world in my mind is far to bleak
I would probably die if I was somebody else
if I swallowed my pride I would probably choke
Mary is this what you want from me?
I fear denial will come and torture me
I've been erased and have no soul to sell
like a flame, like all the devils in hell
going backwards to be released
crumbling down into a wound that bleeds
destroying myself just to wake up
but I can't wake up, I can't wake up
and I've seen, and I've seen
and I have been here before
and I've seen, and I've seen
this isn't happening to me
I gave, I tried but I'm far to weak
the world in my mind is far to bleak
I would probably die if I was somebody else
if I swallowed my pride I would probably choke
Mary is this what you want from me?
I fear denial will come and torture me
I've been erased and have no soul to sell
like a flame, like all the devils in hell
going backwards to be released
crumbling down into a wound that bleeds
destroying myself just to wake up
but I can't wake up, I can't wake up