Catastrophic Heaven Lyrics

And I won't remember my catastrophic heaven
I was not a member of your joyful living
Living my life, it just goes day to day
But it can remind me of what I was not
Why can't you just let me be
Just like it never was
Please leave me alone
You've lost my trust

What do I remember, you took it from me
Did I have a choice then, of my reality
Never making too much of anything you say
Or realizing that I was not

Why can't you just let me be
Just like it never was
Please leave me alone
You've lost my trust
The days and the nights
The big city all those bright lights
The clouds with the moon
Just it all became the same
All melting into one
Looking for a rainbow
Yet so afraid to let it go
It was a nightmare of my dream
I needed no protection
I just simply needed to see
I always need remember, what I met here
Never saw a painting or a pretty picture
It's far away now but I know not to stay
I always wander where I should not

Why can't you just let me be
Just like it never was
Please leave me alone
You've lost my trust
My catastrophic heaven
Please leave me alone
My catastrophic heaven
You've just lost all my trust