I stand at the foot of a mountain, staring up I wonder if I should climb it. They tell me it is what I want, they tell me it is what my heart desires, but I know for a fact that I am searching for much more than a place on top, than a place to call home. I spend my nights wondering where I"ll end up, I spend my days thinking of a way out. I am losing the ones that I love, and I am slowly losing myself. I am losing everything that I once held close to me, and I couldn"t care less. Life is just a selfish game, and I am winning with no intention of quitting.