i won't be your nepenthe or just body, just a place to store all your bad dreams. were you even listening? i won't be your land form, cracked earth full of faults, or something to weigh down with all your ways with words. i might wonder i might worry but i'll resist the compulsion to say i'm sorry. last night through the bus window i saw you but i pretended not to. i won't be your nepenthe or just a body, that's not me. i won't lay down.