Aight, I'm dealin' with some s*** homey, it's in the back of my head
And it's some s*** homey, but I'll just rap it instead
See I got Wolverine's bones in me, but the whole world's throwin' stones at me
Like they all got a bone with me
Got a child's mother, and I hate her to death
But that's my child's mother, so that's my mate to the death
It's wild how I love her, for puttin' "Lil' Me" here
And me and her could beef forever, she gone still be here
Then it's some other *****s, I judged their character wrong
But they some other *****s, now let's get back to the song
I got a drug problem, that I ain't tendin' to
Because I got enough problems, and my solution is to stuff problems
But if something goes wrong with that
Then it's back to PCP and so long with rap
See I'm depressed lately, but nobody understands that I'm depressed lately
I'm sort of feelin' repressed lately
And y'all been hearin' and seein' me less lately
Like does anyone notice the regress lately
Look deep *****, don't I seem stressed lately
Seem disturbed, lot of regrets lately
I got a company that I'm signed to
But they ain't in my company when all I need is some company
When I start feelin' like everybody's done with me
Or tryin' to see what everybody want with me
Then the mistress, yeah the girl from "10 Minutes," it's her
Now I'm needin' 10 minutes from her
I can't get into to it, but I want y'all to know
That I'll get into to, but I'll save that for "The Growth"
And this rap beef, but I'm so secure with me
It's only rap beef, I don't need security
Wanna get at me, wanna go to war with me
That's just one phone call for me
Check this s***, I got a whole hood that don't appreciate me
Not the whole hood that depreciates me
What you gon' tell me when it's the streets that made me
And I won't let the "belly of the beast" degrade me
And then rap critics, they say all I make is dance music
But to almost anything you can dance, stupid
They ain't like the single, so they ain't cop the album
Wouldn't give a chance to it, not a second glance to it
They say he rhymes too much, he's too bitter
They call it complainin', but I call it explainin'
How normal *****s could get caught up in the game and
Lose their mind, and y'all call it entertainment
Some s*** with me, but dudes been knew that
But I'm gamblin' a lot and I ain't used to do that
Rap ain't payin' the bills, it's more money, more problems
Or it's no money, more problems
All enormous when you play at these stakes
That's how it feel to have a warrant on a famous face
Then the album pushed back 'cause they say he need a single at the moment
But what he need is a single moment
Then I'm involved in the he say, she say
It's in my mind on replay each day
Then it's the bullshit that she say he's gay
'Cause she wouldn't like to think that he ain't like her
Just 'cause she was throwing it at me and I ain't touch her
She say anything aside from I ain't wanna **** her
I don't feel good, so I don't wanna go to a club, don't wanna go to a lounge
Just wanna lounge, in the same sweats that I had on for days
Same T that I had on for a week, but I got on and speak
What I got on, it reaks
No shape up showin' 'cause that's just how I'm feelin'
And one day at a time if God's willin'
Tryin' to see straight but the fog keeps buildin'
Pulse start racin', the bulls startin' to hate me
But I gotta be a king, 'cause there's wolves trying to play me
Hoody when it's hot like it's freezing winter
???????? eating sleep for dinner
And it's hard trying to keep this in ya
So I write this down, so when maybe one day when life is all sweet, I'll remember
And it's probation, I know we all go through it
They call it probation, but there's no pro to it
And my souls aching, homey a few peers know
Funny thing about the case is it's a few years old
Had some s*** going on with my ohhh, it felt good but it's bad
So I'm sittin' here like, what the b**** had?
It's not rap, it's real, look scrappy it's true
Knowin' what's poppin', do I look happy to you???
Now if it's goes to the wire got the soul of a fighter
Roused up and sloppy, and damaged like Ali
Up late talkin' to the fans on the website
That's the only thing that send your man off to bed right
**** the world, **** my moms and my girl
Well maybe not moms, just let me remain calm
This too won't last, this too shall pass
At least that's what I say y'all, that's what I pray for
And I'm the only thing that's standin' in my way y'all
But I gotta be with me, it's no escape y'all
I guess depression just stepped in, and took over s*** like it's known to due
Guess it said, hey Joe, I'm going home with you
Turn your phone off, I need to be alone with you
I need to be in the zone with you
'Cause I'm the only thing you've grown to, *****
Look, I own you, *****
Been with you since 10, but you starting to confuse me
'Cause it's been so long and you still tryin' to lose me
Like ____, you show me such cruelty
When everybody turns their back on you, it's just you and me
Still you don't want me to see you right
And why you always come get me, how we re-unite
I know you feel for me deep in your heart
Doctors, meetings, pills couldn't keep us apart
What, now, you got a deal and you wanna get rid of me?
We roommates, I'm in your head, Joe you live with me
So I don't write for my fans, nah, I write to my man
And hope that he'll just leave and understand
Like, just please leave the kid in peace
Let me smoke this one cig in peace
Just leave for a second, man it's been too long, and I can't troop it
And as long as you around I can't make that dance music
And it's some s*** homey, but I'll just rap it instead
See I got Wolverine's bones in me, but the whole world's throwin' stones at me
Like they all got a bone with me
Got a child's mother, and I hate her to death
But that's my child's mother, so that's my mate to the death
It's wild how I love her, for puttin' "Lil' Me" here
And me and her could beef forever, she gone still be here
Then it's some other *****s, I judged their character wrong
But they some other *****s, now let's get back to the song
I got a drug problem, that I ain't tendin' to
Because I got enough problems, and my solution is to stuff problems
But if something goes wrong with that
Then it's back to PCP and so long with rap
See I'm depressed lately, but nobody understands that I'm depressed lately
I'm sort of feelin' repressed lately
And y'all been hearin' and seein' me less lately
Like does anyone notice the regress lately
Look deep *****, don't I seem stressed lately
Seem disturbed, lot of regrets lately
I got a company that I'm signed to
But they ain't in my company when all I need is some company
When I start feelin' like everybody's done with me
Or tryin' to see what everybody want with me
Then the mistress, yeah the girl from "10 Minutes," it's her
Now I'm needin' 10 minutes from her
I can't get into to it, but I want y'all to know
That I'll get into to, but I'll save that for "The Growth"
And this rap beef, but I'm so secure with me
It's only rap beef, I don't need security
Wanna get at me, wanna go to war with me
That's just one phone call for me
Check this s***, I got a whole hood that don't appreciate me
Not the whole hood that depreciates me
What you gon' tell me when it's the streets that made me
And I won't let the "belly of the beast" degrade me
And then rap critics, they say all I make is dance music
But to almost anything you can dance, stupid
They ain't like the single, so they ain't cop the album
Wouldn't give a chance to it, not a second glance to it
They say he rhymes too much, he's too bitter
They call it complainin', but I call it explainin'
How normal *****s could get caught up in the game and
Lose their mind, and y'all call it entertainment
Some s*** with me, but dudes been knew that
But I'm gamblin' a lot and I ain't used to do that
Rap ain't payin' the bills, it's more money, more problems
Or it's no money, more problems
All enormous when you play at these stakes
That's how it feel to have a warrant on a famous face
Then the album pushed back 'cause they say he need a single at the moment
But what he need is a single moment
Then I'm involved in the he say, she say
It's in my mind on replay each day
Then it's the bullshit that she say he's gay
'Cause she wouldn't like to think that he ain't like her
Just 'cause she was throwing it at me and I ain't touch her
She say anything aside from I ain't wanna **** her
I don't feel good, so I don't wanna go to a club, don't wanna go to a lounge
Just wanna lounge, in the same sweats that I had on for days
Same T that I had on for a week, but I got on and speak
What I got on, it reaks
No shape up showin' 'cause that's just how I'm feelin'
And one day at a time if God's willin'
Tryin' to see straight but the fog keeps buildin'
Pulse start racin', the bulls startin' to hate me
But I gotta be a king, 'cause there's wolves trying to play me
Hoody when it's hot like it's freezing winter
???????? eating sleep for dinner
And it's hard trying to keep this in ya
So I write this down, so when maybe one day when life is all sweet, I'll remember
And it's probation, I know we all go through it
They call it probation, but there's no pro to it
And my souls aching, homey a few peers know
Funny thing about the case is it's a few years old
Had some s*** going on with my ohhh, it felt good but it's bad
So I'm sittin' here like, what the b**** had?
It's not rap, it's real, look scrappy it's true
Knowin' what's poppin', do I look happy to you???
Now if it's goes to the wire got the soul of a fighter
Roused up and sloppy, and damaged like Ali
Up late talkin' to the fans on the website
That's the only thing that send your man off to bed right
**** the world, **** my moms and my girl
Well maybe not moms, just let me remain calm
This too won't last, this too shall pass
At least that's what I say y'all, that's what I pray for
And I'm the only thing that's standin' in my way y'all
But I gotta be with me, it's no escape y'all
I guess depression just stepped in, and took over s*** like it's known to due
Guess it said, hey Joe, I'm going home with you
Turn your phone off, I need to be alone with you
I need to be in the zone with you
'Cause I'm the only thing you've grown to, *****
Look, I own you, *****
Been with you since 10, but you starting to confuse me
'Cause it's been so long and you still tryin' to lose me
Like ____, you show me such cruelty
When everybody turns their back on you, it's just you and me
Still you don't want me to see you right
And why you always come get me, how we re-unite
I know you feel for me deep in your heart
Doctors, meetings, pills couldn't keep us apart
What, now, you got a deal and you wanna get rid of me?
We roommates, I'm in your head, Joe you live with me
So I don't write for my fans, nah, I write to my man
And hope that he'll just leave and understand
Like, just please leave the kid in peace
Let me smoke this one cig in peace
Just leave for a second, man it's been too long, and I can't troop it
And as long as you around I can't make that dance music