Lonely and restless on the coldest of nights
With these thoughts on my mind that keep pulling me down
I'm only fooling everyone else
So that everyone else turns their back on me
Can't let go of these feelings that I'm keeping inside
Or hold on cause I'm feeling like I'm barely alive
Lay back as this pain takes over me
Broke down cause my head was spinning out of control
Nineteen years, and I've got nothing to show
We're only getting older now
This pain seems forgotten
But inside I'm rotting
Thinking of all this time
Left to waste then die
The only thing I know for sure
Is I don't care anymore
And when I'm gone
I hope you have the strength to move on
Angry, but I'm told to not complain
Recluse, but I'm better off this way
This is not what I want, but I'll just b*** my tongue
I'm hungry, but I'm too tired to eat
Tired, but I'm too hungry to sleep
We're only getting older now
This pain seems forgotten
But inside I'm rotting
Thinking of all this time
Left to waste then die
The only thing I know for sure
Is I don't care anymore
And it hurts
Save me cause I'm drowning
Give me more time
Cause I can't keep on counting
It feels like I'm blinded now
As they shut me out
But I'm trying to see
Please make this stop
This seems forgotten
But inside I'm rotting
Thinking of all this time
Left to waste then die
But I'm not going to know what I'm doing here
So why can't you give me a sign?
And as I drown now
Swimming in an ocean of fear
My last regret is
Never knowing why I'm here
With these thoughts on my mind that keep pulling me down
I'm only fooling everyone else
So that everyone else turns their back on me
Can't let go of these feelings that I'm keeping inside
Or hold on cause I'm feeling like I'm barely alive
Lay back as this pain takes over me
Broke down cause my head was spinning out of control
Nineteen years, and I've got nothing to show
We're only getting older now
This pain seems forgotten
But inside I'm rotting
Thinking of all this time
Left to waste then die
The only thing I know for sure
Is I don't care anymore
And when I'm gone
I hope you have the strength to move on
Angry, but I'm told to not complain
Recluse, but I'm better off this way
This is not what I want, but I'll just b*** my tongue
I'm hungry, but I'm too tired to eat
Tired, but I'm too hungry to sleep
We're only getting older now
This pain seems forgotten
But inside I'm rotting
Thinking of all this time
Left to waste then die
The only thing I know for sure
Is I don't care anymore
And it hurts
Save me cause I'm drowning
Give me more time
Cause I can't keep on counting
It feels like I'm blinded now
As they shut me out
But I'm trying to see
Please make this stop
This seems forgotten
But inside I'm rotting
Thinking of all this time
Left to waste then die
But I'm not going to know what I'm doing here
So why can't you give me a sign?
And as I drown now
Swimming in an ocean of fear
My last regret is
Never knowing why I'm here