Doushite itsumo hiza kakaete hitori furueteru?
Warau koto nado ima wa deki nai mou, wasurete shimatta yo
Machi wo hiyashita DOSHAburi mada yamisou ni nakute
Kegareta sekai kiete shimaeba dou raku ni nareru kana
Hieta karada no naka ni akami wo nakushita kokoro
Hageshiku uchitsukeraretemo itasa wo kanjinai kara
Mechakucha ni natte mieta mono wa yandeku jibun no sugata de
Koeta hazu datta kurushimi wa ima mofukaku f**aku kizamarete yuku kedo
Kizutsuku koto kara hajimaru
Subete koorase subete owari ni s***aku natte ita
Hito no koe nado mou kikitakunai to mimi wo fusaideru
Hitotsu koete mita kedo mata hitotsu fuete yuku MONO wa
Dare mo wakatte kurenai kara itsumo kowashitaku naru
Mezameru to soko wa kurayami no naka de nigedasu koto nado deki nai
Oroka na yatsura ni toraeraretekitsuku kitsuku shibararete yuku kedo
"...watashi wa doko made taeru no?"
I'm confind in the darkness
I'm deaf, I'm blind, but I have voice, it can shout
I wanna run away from pain
Why? naze ikite ite Why? asu wo mukaete
Why? kono mama Why? ima demo Why I'm alive?
Dare ka shinjite ikiteku koto nikushimi ni kawari
Watashi wa nan ni sugaritsuite dou nakisakebeba ii?
Wakariae nai mama owaru dake naraba shinjiru koto nado deki nai
Tataki tsubusareta kono kanjou anata wa doko made wakaru no
Kanashimi ga areba yorokobi mo aru kedo to wa ni tsuduiteku wake ja nai
Misute naide ite toki ga itsuka nagareta toki kitto kidzuku deshou
Shinjiru koto kara hajimaru
Hai ni natte miageta sekai ima mo kurai asayake ga itai
Hai ni natte yudaneta sekai kurushimi goto kaze ni f**aretai
Hai ni natte minareta sekai ima mo kurai asayake ga itai
Kurushimi goto kaze ni f**aretai...
English Translation:
Why am I always on my own, hugging my knees and trembling?
I can't smile now, I've forgotten how
The downpour that's chilled this town shows no sign of stopping
How can I find comfort if this dirty world disappears?
In my chilled body, the blood has drained from my heart
You could slug me hard and I still wouldn't feel any pain
Everything has become scrambled before my eyes, I've lost sight of who I am
I thought I'd got through the pain, but it still cuts me deep, so deep
But it's from getting hurt that things begin
I've begun to want to freeze everything over, end it all
I'm blocking my ears, I don't want to hear anyone's voice
As soon as I get through something, something else appears
Nobody understands, and it always makes me want to break something
When I wake up, I'm in darkness, unable to run away
Stupid guys have got a hold on me, they're hanging on tight to me
But "...how much can I take"
I'm confined in the darkness
I'm deaf, I'm blind, but I have voice, it can shout
I wanna run away from pain
Why? Why am I alive? Why? Looking to tomorrow?
Why? Like this? Why? Even now? Why I'm alive?
The trust I've felt for someone throughout my life has turned to hate
What can I cling to, how can I cry and scream?
If it's just going to end before I understand, then I can't trust anything
How much do you understand of my smashed-up feelings?
If there is sadness then there'll also be happiness, but that doesn't mean it'll last forever
Don't give up, you're sure to realise as time goes by
It's from believing that things begin
I turned to ashes and looked up at this world, even now the dark sunrise hurts me
I turned to ashes and entrusted myself to this world, I want to entrust all my pain to the wind
I turned to ashes and became used to the world, even now the dark sunrise hurts me
I want to entrust all my pain to the wind...
Warau koto nado ima wa deki nai mou, wasurete shimatta yo
Machi wo hiyashita DOSHAburi mada yamisou ni nakute
Kegareta sekai kiete shimaeba dou raku ni nareru kana
Hieta karada no naka ni akami wo nakushita kokoro
Hageshiku uchitsukeraretemo itasa wo kanjinai kara
Mechakucha ni natte mieta mono wa yandeku jibun no sugata de
Koeta hazu datta kurushimi wa ima mofukaku f**aku kizamarete yuku kedo
Kizutsuku koto kara hajimaru
Subete koorase subete owari ni s***aku natte ita
Hito no koe nado mou kikitakunai to mimi wo fusaideru
Hitotsu koete mita kedo mata hitotsu fuete yuku MONO wa
Dare mo wakatte kurenai kara itsumo kowashitaku naru
Mezameru to soko wa kurayami no naka de nigedasu koto nado deki nai
Oroka na yatsura ni toraeraretekitsuku kitsuku shibararete yuku kedo
"...watashi wa doko made taeru no?"
I'm confind in the darkness
I'm deaf, I'm blind, but I have voice, it can shout
I wanna run away from pain
Why? naze ikite ite Why? asu wo mukaete
Why? kono mama Why? ima demo Why I'm alive?
Dare ka shinjite ikiteku koto nikushimi ni kawari
Watashi wa nan ni sugaritsuite dou nakisakebeba ii?
Wakariae nai mama owaru dake naraba shinjiru koto nado deki nai
Tataki tsubusareta kono kanjou anata wa doko made wakaru no
Kanashimi ga areba yorokobi mo aru kedo to wa ni tsuduiteku wake ja nai
Misute naide ite toki ga itsuka nagareta toki kitto kidzuku deshou
Shinjiru koto kara hajimaru
Hai ni natte miageta sekai ima mo kurai asayake ga itai
Hai ni natte yudaneta sekai kurushimi goto kaze ni f**aretai
Hai ni natte minareta sekai ima mo kurai asayake ga itai
Kurushimi goto kaze ni f**aretai...
English Translation:
Why am I always on my own, hugging my knees and trembling?
I can't smile now, I've forgotten how
The downpour that's chilled this town shows no sign of stopping
How can I find comfort if this dirty world disappears?
In my chilled body, the blood has drained from my heart
You could slug me hard and I still wouldn't feel any pain
Everything has become scrambled before my eyes, I've lost sight of who I am
I thought I'd got through the pain, but it still cuts me deep, so deep
But it's from getting hurt that things begin
I've begun to want to freeze everything over, end it all
I'm blocking my ears, I don't want to hear anyone's voice
As soon as I get through something, something else appears
Nobody understands, and it always makes me want to break something
When I wake up, I'm in darkness, unable to run away
Stupid guys have got a hold on me, they're hanging on tight to me
But "...how much can I take"
I'm confined in the darkness
I'm deaf, I'm blind, but I have voice, it can shout
I wanna run away from pain
Why? Why am I alive? Why? Looking to tomorrow?
Why? Like this? Why? Even now? Why I'm alive?
The trust I've felt for someone throughout my life has turned to hate
What can I cling to, how can I cry and scream?
If it's just going to end before I understand, then I can't trust anything
How much do you understand of my smashed-up feelings?
If there is sadness then there'll also be happiness, but that doesn't mean it'll last forever
Don't give up, you're sure to realise as time goes by
It's from believing that things begin
I turned to ashes and looked up at this world, even now the dark sunrise hurts me
I turned to ashes and entrusted myself to this world, I want to entrust all my pain to the wind
I turned to ashes and became used to the world, even now the dark sunrise hurts me
I want to entrust all my pain to the wind...