It's been a slow and steady crawl
To get a third of the way through without destroying it all.
And every day I welcome change,
But new perspective brings new shame,
So I'm haunting myself everywhere that I go.
They'll break me down and start again
When all is calm and settled in.
Like cancer-ridden light, these burning knives
will rip through every lie I've ever told myself.
They're a part of me I can't expel,
The wheels will spin to build this hell.
If I stray from mind they'll cast out the line
And reel me back inside.
They do their worst at night.
Never asleep, never a sound.
As they forge deeper underground,
Their rational knows no bounds
With unbridled strength, I'm swept away.
You know delusion can persuade
My settled mind to simply erase.
They'll scan me through for something sick,
And once these bones are clearly picked,
The cold will grow deeper to control.
I don't know where to go to get away from this.
So I live through you. Through everyone,
In search of a reason why I fall to my internal eyes.
They only paralyze anything and everything.
But I'll blind them with the light of this life,
And they'll die in the dead of the night.
To get a third of the way through without destroying it all.
And every day I welcome change,
But new perspective brings new shame,
So I'm haunting myself everywhere that I go.
They'll break me down and start again
When all is calm and settled in.
Like cancer-ridden light, these burning knives
will rip through every lie I've ever told myself.
They're a part of me I can't expel,
The wheels will spin to build this hell.
If I stray from mind they'll cast out the line
And reel me back inside.
They do their worst at night.
Never asleep, never a sound.
As they forge deeper underground,
Their rational knows no bounds
With unbridled strength, I'm swept away.
You know delusion can persuade
My settled mind to simply erase.
They'll scan me through for something sick,
And once these bones are clearly picked,
The cold will grow deeper to control.
I don't know where to go to get away from this.
So I live through you. Through everyone,
In search of a reason why I fall to my internal eyes.
They only paralyze anything and everything.
But I'll blind them with the light of this life,
And they'll die in the dead of the night.