If You're Watching Lyrics

I think I've found what I'm looking for
Behind those eyes an open door
That vacant stare which I adore
I'm your s***, and you're my w****
Spare yourself the aching heart
And spare yourself the pain
Let us just makebleive it's yesterday again
And mother if you're watching, look away
And mother if you're wondering,
But don't know what to say
Mother if you're watching, look away
just look away

I think I found what I'm looking for
So hit the lights and shut the door
Listen carefully here's the score
I'm your s***, and you're my w****
Spare yourself the aching heart
And spare yourself the shame
Let us just make believe it's yesterday again
And mother if you're watching, look away
And mother if you're wondering,
But don't know what to say
Mother if you're watching, look away
It sometimes makes me sick inside
Ashamed of a life that I must hide
I know you'll never understand
I'm sorry there's no wedding band
But deep inside there's still that child
Innocent in a world gone wild
Obedient of your moral code
Scarred by a Christian overload
But still I live by truth and love
I still have hopes in the above
I still have interest in the cross

But mother if your listening...... shut if off