Goodbye Lyrics

Avoiding thoughts about the afterlife
hiding my face from the light
the window closed, no air inside
still I try to put up a smile
But I'm not worried, I'm just okay
I washed off all my sins today

But I'm afraid
I'm afraid of letting go
yes I'm afraid
I'm afraid of letting you know
that I'm not ready
but soon I'll learn to say goodbye
As you sit down there by my bed
and ask me how I am today
I never thought I'd be one of those
who cannot even say what I don't want to do