Thinking of You Lyrics

It's starting to pull me under,
i can feel it beneath my feet,
the last few months have passed so slowly,
and its been so long since i've seen you smile.
I'm too afraid to ask whats wrong,
so i sit and stare frustrated digging my nails into my palms,
I never wanted you to see me like that,
bloodshot eyes and bleeding fists, speechless love, a new years wish.

I never wanted you to see me re-enact those days i threw away,
stuttered screams from a distant voice,
i followed you all the way to your front door,
no words could take the pain from your eyes,
like a knife to the heart i'll be sleeping alone tonight.
When i wake, you won't see me again,
you won't have to worry about me anymore.
I'm sorry for all the times that i f***** up,
I'm sorry for all the times that i let you down.
You always said it was hard to talk,
and i guess it always was,
it still feels the same,
I still feel the same, the only difference is your
not there.

I brought this on myself,
your not there, when i need you the most,
your not there, and i cant stop thinking of you...