She said, "I feel numb"
I said "That doesn't make sense"
"Numbness is a lack of feeling", she said
I knew what she meant
And I did, I was just talking.
I'm not a pedant but I was hesitant to let silence walk in
I took her hand and I kissed each knuckle
It didn't reach her at first but she smiled a smile that meant 'f*** all'
"I don't think I want to fight it", she said, without eye contact
"I want my last breath to be a laugh
not the last gasp of a lab rat"
And I had nothing to say back
Just smiled and kissed each knuckle again
Comfort, rewound and played back.
We left through the lobby as I text skeghead Bobby
Nice name, right?
He said he'd run out, but if we dropped off cash,
he could sort us out the same night
So we dropped off a little money and went and had Happy Meals
'Lady's choice' I'd said, as she chose to pay Ronald McDonalds bills
I wore an upper-half face mask of the Hamburglar
We took it turns not to laugh as we ate the equivalent weight of a third of her
I used to buy weed off Bobby
back in my late teens
He was as shady as his monicker
but he could facilitate our new needs
Neither of us had done ecstasy before
but we bought three tabs each
f*** it, you only live once
and that's at the most it would seem
We walked around the South Bank
wrapped up warm in coats and gloves
we sang songs, ran in circles, laughed and fell in love
It wasn't real love of course,
just a chemical turning
But that was all we required
temporary life affirmentship
We were beauty that night
through drug-tinted glasses
The sun shone on us through the dark skies
as the rest of the world passed us
I roam for adventure to go right down to Greenwich
start to finish four hours, give or take off a few minutes
Around 10:45 as we sat on a bench
the place glew in the dark
You could see right across the river
from the Cutty Sark to Milwall Park
We shared a kiss at that moment
with no s**ual undercovers
She jumped to her feet and said "Lets play a game,
If you can catch me right now, I will tell you my name!"
And with that she turned and ran as I promptly gave chase
through streets and alley-ways as laughs cascaded from her face
Again, out of no doubt it was down to the chemicals
but she seemed to float and glow
as we bounded on like thin blood through wide ventricles
All of a sudden, like in slow motion
she held herself into the air
And then in the blinking sound of a splash
I was stood all alone there
There was no flailing or splashing
just the first one that broke the surface
I heard that when a girl writes off the world
it's done in cursive
I'd met her that morning
in the waiting room at 7AM
And 16 beautiful hours later
I'd never see her again.
I said "That doesn't make sense"
"Numbness is a lack of feeling", she said
I knew what she meant
And I did, I was just talking.
I'm not a pedant but I was hesitant to let silence walk in
I took her hand and I kissed each knuckle
It didn't reach her at first but she smiled a smile that meant 'f*** all'
"I don't think I want to fight it", she said, without eye contact
"I want my last breath to be a laugh
not the last gasp of a lab rat"
And I had nothing to say back
Just smiled and kissed each knuckle again
Comfort, rewound and played back.
We left through the lobby as I text skeghead Bobby
Nice name, right?
He said he'd run out, but if we dropped off cash,
he could sort us out the same night
So we dropped off a little money and went and had Happy Meals
'Lady's choice' I'd said, as she chose to pay Ronald McDonalds bills
I wore an upper-half face mask of the Hamburglar
We took it turns not to laugh as we ate the equivalent weight of a third of her
I used to buy weed off Bobby
back in my late teens
He was as shady as his monicker
but he could facilitate our new needs
Neither of us had done ecstasy before
but we bought three tabs each
f*** it, you only live once
and that's at the most it would seem
We walked around the South Bank
wrapped up warm in coats and gloves
we sang songs, ran in circles, laughed and fell in love
It wasn't real love of course,
just a chemical turning
But that was all we required
temporary life affirmentship
We were beauty that night
through drug-tinted glasses
The sun shone on us through the dark skies
as the rest of the world passed us
I roam for adventure to go right down to Greenwich
start to finish four hours, give or take off a few minutes
Around 10:45 as we sat on a bench
the place glew in the dark
You could see right across the river
from the Cutty Sark to Milwall Park
We shared a kiss at that moment
with no s**ual undercovers
She jumped to her feet and said "Lets play a game,
If you can catch me right now, I will tell you my name!"
And with that she turned and ran as I promptly gave chase
through streets and alley-ways as laughs cascaded from her face
Again, out of no doubt it was down to the chemicals
but she seemed to float and glow
as we bounded on like thin blood through wide ventricles
All of a sudden, like in slow motion
she held herself into the air
And then in the blinking sound of a splash
I was stood all alone there
There was no flailing or splashing
just the first one that broke the surface
I heard that when a girl writes off the world
it's done in cursive
I'd met her that morning
in the waiting room at 7AM
And 16 beautiful hours later
I'd never see her again.