Broken Lyrics

I wish that I could end this but I'm too afraid to try
And I wanna scream

I feel it in my lungs in every breath I take
In my bones, in my heart with every smile I fake
The look of dead eyes, the fear, the lies and this disguise
I feel it in my blood and it makes me numb
I wish that I could end this but I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to you if you wanted to know why
I wish that things were easier but the stars are not aligned
And my heart can't survive
The pain lets me know that I'm alive

Something surrounding me, pulled under and I can't breathe
Reflections lie to me, I see what they don't see
The look of dead eyes, the fear, the lies and this disguise
I feel it drowning me
And I wanna scream
I wish that I could end this but I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to you if you wanted to know why
I wish that things were easier but the stars are not aligned
And my heart can't survive
The pain lets me know that I'm alive

And I was broken
But now I'm standing on my own, a new moment to begin
The scars of our past don't have to hold us back
But I'm addicted to the way you make me feel and
I'll never understand, you'll never understand
I wish that I could end this but I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to you if you wanted to know why
I wish that I could hate you but I cannot live a lie and my heart can't survive
My heart can't survive
I wanted to stop breathing but I'm too afraid to die
I don't know what to say to you if you wanted to know why
And now everyone is telling me that I lost my mind
If I tried to get it back I'm scared of what I'd find
I am broken