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As time moves on
I watch the color fade
The life in my face dies with the choices that I make
It seems I'll never get this right
So just fake it for tonight
The same old "I'll be alright"
The same fake "I said I'm fine"
How can I have an ounce of confidence
How can I act like I'm proud
When I do the same things to myself
Always cutting myself down
I've given life my everything
But I still fell short
And if tomorrow isn't coming my way
I won't lose sleep
I am running and hiding from the thoughts of dying
That always seem to follow me at night
'Cause if you live in the moment and not a second past
You can lie to yourself about the things you'll never ask
A thousand pages set to flame
As I fall short
I'm the only one to blame
see I'm starving for something I can't comprehend
I can't hear anything over the noise of what's unsaid
The sinking feeling inside my chest
Comes easier than a night of rest
I'm losing color
f****** sick to my stomach
The cold sweat is making itself at home again
The poster child example of a lack of self control
Destroying what's mine
Just because it's beautiful
Arnon