Lying at the bottom where the sun don't shine. night and day just the passing of time. living in a haze of distress. trying to find myself once again. Fighting to black out the memories. taken a beating like never before. hands of time bring only pain. as i fight for the control, i was never able to gain. betrayed without a warning. left empty and numb. scarred and broken. the past is done. nothingas it was before. Nothing stays the same. nothing remains. No sense of regret, put an end to the days of bitterness, had to cut the rope around my neck, i was suffocating on my surroundings, fell into a spot no one could handle. held out for a change that never came. left empty and numb. scarred and broken. the past is done. nothing as it was before. Nothing stays the same. nothing remains. Ripped apart, inside and out, facing this world dead and buried, gave everything, lost it all in return, living and dying seem so close.