In a Hole Again Lyrics

Don't want anyone to know who I really am
So they never see all the things I hide behind
These precious walls I built just for me
So if they look into the windows of my soul
All they're going to see
Are my eyes starin' back and not shattered glass
Or the broken side of me
Cuz I'm so afraid to show my darkest secrets
I keep them wrapped in chains
And locked up in a place where no one goes
But I'm sure my insecurities will give it all away
I'm headin' fast straight for a crash and burn
For me there is no shame

(I'm goin down) Back in the hole again
(Deep underground) I'm in a hole again
(Where no one's around) And I don't need a friend
(So safe and sound) Back in my hole again
I'm finally back, of course,
Behind the mask I've always worn for you
To distract you since I couldn't face the fact
That someone ever knew
That all I am is just some smoke and mirrors
And a gun pointin' back at you
If you were to catch me in the act like this
I know it would be through
All these years I've lived in fear
That you would find out
Just exactly what I'm made of,
What I'm really all about
And it would kill me just to see you
Point your finger, and hear you say
"You're one of them!" and this I could not stand
So I'll be on my way