I haven't slept in so long. It feels like weeks. My mind's in overdrive now. My muscles atrophying. In fear of all the angles. All the reasons I can't breathe. Never sure if I can come away remitting this dependency. In constant fear and doubt of death and all unsure. I need something to calm my nerves now. Nothing that drugs can't cure. A total plague of worry. In need of logics reason. Do I want to sedatives to settle all my doubt. Not sure of the side effects or repercussions anymore. Not sure if I want to feel the psychotropics an